Advice from Lorenzo:
FIGHT BACK WITH PRAYER
(In response to my post of 1/28/00.)
I don't have the answers, man. I joined this network in September and
know all the fancy words that some of these guys use. At times I think
some of them try to show off with their knowledge, but that's O.K..
good people who try to help and I do admit that I have learned.
If you sound desperate it is because you are desperate. I honor your
Not many of us are men enough to spill their guts to strangers asking
help. You did it and I applaud you for it.
I am not an analyst, Robert. This is not a rah rah letter to cheer you
am no Vince Lombardi, hence this is not a locker room speech.
You are going through the stages we all been through. The fear, the
desperation, the need to yell: "HEY, IS THERE ANYBODY THERE
you know something, my friend? Please don't feel sorry for yourself.
moment you do, this bitch will consume you. It is like a predator looking
Those who abandon hope are the first ones to go. Attitude is important
this fight. Remember the [Rocky] Balboa analogy. You went down, now get up
Remember what Rocky told his trainer in the movie. He was not concerned
winning. HE WANTED TO GO THE DISTANCE. That was his motivation and he
Use something to motivate you everyday to beat this SOB. Mine is
have two little granddaughters. One is going to be four in March and the
17 months. We love each other to death. My goal is to see them become
teenagers and this damn cancer is not going to stop me. You have to
back my friend.
I am not a member of the Religious Right. As a matter of fact, I can't
them because of their patronizing attitude, so please don't get upset
I am going to tell you.
I been through a lot in life. I fought in the Bay of Pigs. I thought
was going to die there. I prayed and God got me through it. Later in
they did awful things to us, physically and mentally. I asked God to
and He did. He got us out. When I arrived in this country, I did it
only $20.00 with me and summer clothes. Try to survive in the winter
with $20.00, summer clothes, broken English, and not knowing anybody.
headaches from the hunger were so bad that I thought I was going to
I asked God for help, He did. One time I was extremely hungry and
There was this car with a door partially opened and on the pavement
it, a submarine sandwich on the floor. I devoured it in less than 20
Another time, I was walking down the streets of NYC, it was cold and I
shaking. I stopped to look around to get a sense of direction and I
standing in front of the building which housed the company that my dad
work for in Cuba. I went upstairs, introduced myself and they hired
was lost, but by coincidence? I was standing in front of right
don't think it was coincidence. I think it was God trying to help me.
call it in the Catholic Church "Divine Providence."
Remember what I told you. Go to a place by yourself or seat on the
the bed and say: "God, I can't stand this anymore. I am asking you to
over. I put everything in your hands." Say it honestly, and
start feeling an immense peace.
This is one hell of a battle we in Phase D are fighting. When my
me that the medication was working because my PSA went from 117 to 0.6,
said. "No, is God working through the medications. Who created the men
invented the medication. Who created the doctor?" You have to have faith
God, because if not, you might as well start digging your grave now.
We are fighting a dragon here. This is David v. Goliath, part II.
difference is that we don't carry stones. We carry our prayers. I
friends: "Pray for me, because I can't win this by myself." And if at
end we go down, we go down swinging.
One time at church, one of the readings was a letter of St. Paul. I
a part of it. "On earth, we work for Christ. In death we see Him." I
know about you Robert, but to me that is a win/win situation.
Please excuse me if I offended you with the religious part of it. It
my intention. As I told you. I can't stand the religious right. We
survive this so in the future we can help more Roberts. Remember, you
one time that in the future you want to help the newbies. Well, you
help them in your present condition. There is nothing wrong in feeling
you are. We been through that and you would be a freak if you did not
through it. My friend, now is the time to clean your rifle.
Take care guy. Always keep your chin up. You call me if you need
[name used with permission]
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