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cover of book man to man by michael korda a selection from:

Man to Man:
Surviving Prostate Cancer


by Michael Korda

Part II - Surgery


 
Picking up at page 116

THE DAY THE office closed for the Thanksgiving vacation, Margaret came to pick me up. I made my good-byes. I had tried to keep a stiff upper lip for several weeks, but this time I couldn't do it. So many people wished me good luck, embraced me, assured me that they would be thinking of me, or praying for me, that I could feel tears in my eyes by the time we reached the elevator. I was sure — well, almost sure, anyway — that I would be coming back here, but when, and in what shape? I felt as if I were closing a chapter of my life, and of course the truth is, I was. Before and after prostate-cancer surgery, as I would discover, are different worlds, and you cannot imagine the second when you are still in the first.

Thanksgiving weekend Margaret and I spent together quietly, trying not to think about what lay in store for both of us. I had no doubt that Margaret's role would be as difficult as mine ಋ perhaps in some ways more difficult, because everyone's attention is naturally focused on the patient's problems, whereas the fears, problems, and feelings of the patient's spouse or companion go largely ignored. It's not just that sickness often results in a reversal of roles ಋ the strong person in a relationship may suddenly become the weak one, the caretaker needs caring for, the person who has always looked after things now needs looking after, and so forth — it also creates feelings that can't be acknowledged, that can't, perhaps, even be admitted to oneself.

It's hard to argue with a man who has cancer, and even harder to be angry with him, and yet women often do feel anger, inevitably — anger that their lives are being upset, anger at being abandoned, however innocently; for serious illness is a kind of abandonment, in which the patient becomes totally immersed in his own case, in his own health, his own needs.

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